Author: L.A. Witt
Genre: M/M Contemporary
Available: 19th July
Three’s a disaster when things come unraveled.
Rock star Nate Keller is on top of the world, but his headlining tour has one drawback. It keeps him away from his boyfriends, Theo and Cameron, for weeks at a time. Yet after four-and-a-half years—and a lot of hard work—the trio is still going strong.
But then Cam comes to visit with devastating news. After seventeen years together, he and Theo have agreed to a trial separation. Nate tries desperately to fix his lovers’ broken relationship, but there’s only so much he can do from the road.
At home, Cam tries to carry on, but feels like his whole life is spiraling out of control. Theo struggles to cope with the split as his depression worsens. They’re both spinning their wheels, quickly losing hope they can keep it together—and keep the man they both still love.
Desperate, Nate drops everything in a last-ditch attempt to pull their trio back together before they hit rock bottom. Except their love could already be shattered beyond repair.
Warning: Contains two men who must face how broken they are before they can fix their failing marriage, and the man who loves them both—but doesn’t know how to save them.
Source: ARC from Samhain Publishing via NetGalley
Oh, angst! If emotional tugs-of-war and much lamenting about feelings and being broken and hurting inside aren’t your thing, then this book is not for you. If, however, you’re looking for something that will drag your emotions about and put its characters through all kinds of emotional hell, then you may well enjoy this one.
This book is not light and at times it is a difficult read – not because of what happens, more because of what doesn’t. There is so much hurt between Cam and Theo, which spills over onto Nate and just leads to the three of them hurting and withdrawing and making everything difficult all ’round. It’s not really a romance either, because there is love here, but it’s a battered, broken thing, as an existing and once-strong relationship unravels.
It’s also a book of issues. Cam and Theo both have undiagnosed conditions, which they won’t face up to, they won’t acknowledge and have somehow kept secret from each other for seventeen years – well, more like seven, actually. While Nate somehow sees these things, but doesn’t quite put all the clues together to figure it out.
I felt bad for Nate, because although the other two love him and claim he’s an equal partner in their relationship, he really isn’t. They keep him out of the discussions, they say they’ll both keep seeing him, but how will that even begin to work? He’s tugged about and worn ragged throughout, but he also seems much younger than the other two (he isn’t, it’s about three years at most), and is completely unable to cope with their disintegration. Thankfully, his best friend Jill is amazing and keeps reminding him to take care of himself amidst all the mess.
I sympathised most with Theo – the heavy weight of his depression, his sheer exhaustion with life, the way the other two seemed to always leave him out of things. Nate tries his best, but he does seem to spend more time with Cam, and that made me side with Theo, even if he doesn’t do a thing to help himself. Luckily for him, his sister-in-law is awesome. I really loved her character.
Cam… it’s not that I didn’t like him, but I felt he was the most capable of the three of sorting things out, but just like Theo, he does nothing. Yes, he has issues and I felt for him when things were falling to pieces, but his life is in a much more secure place than Theo’s and I just wanted him to look at his husband and see what was wrong. Theo manages to do that, but Cam, he’s just oblivious and defensive and I just wanted them to talk to each other!
Of course, if they’d done that, there would be no book. There is a lot of hurt here and some deeper issues, but most of the story is aimless circling around the same old, same old, getting nowhere, except deeper into hurt, with plenty of sex thrown in to prove that they have chemistry even when their emotional bonds are snapping. This is not necessarily a bad thing, because people are tricky and talking can be hard, but it may just stretch your patience a bit, especially when certain things towards the end make the solutions seem more simple than perhaps they are.
In all, though, I found this a good read. I think if I read it on a different day, I might have had a different reaction, but I needed something angsty and painful, but not without hope. And that’s what I got here. I have to admit, I’m still not entirely convinced about this triad and how truly equal it is, but the ending did make me smile. Which is all I could ask after the pounding my emotions took throughout.
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